Shrinks

when people think about psychologists, they think "nerd", "busy-body", and "a load of crap". why? how is it that we become so afraid that someone else is gonna find out things about us that we label these doctors who spend time thinking about things we should be thinking for ourselves? it's a psychological defense isn't it? we're so freaked out about someone else possibly knowing our personalities better than we do, that we just simply laugh at the thought of seeking out a psychologist to help guide us through life with a better understanding of why we are the way we are. not me.

i thrive on psychology. i'm ALWAYS thinking about why i act the way i do. when yo have a problem, you have to first identify what it is before you can fix it. it's like auto-mechanics: your car breaks down, but why? how can you say that the battery needs replacing when you don't even know what's wrong with the car in the first place? i mean, com'on! don't you know why you act in a certain and stop it? if you know what's wrong, then you can stop it before you act up.

people ask me why i watch dr.phil... why i would waste my time with a bunch of crap, with people like that who tell you things you already know and charge you money for it? i'm telling you, if people would take the courses that they do to get their PhD's, then we wouldn't need them at all. but we don't! we DON'T think for ourselves what psychologists think for us, we simply get so caught up with other aspects of our lives that we forget that we need to get caught up with us first. it's always the question how can you take care of everyone else, when you can't even take care of yourself? how can you take care of yourself when you haven't gotten to know yourself? i know i avoid knowing myself because of the fear of what i might find out. what if i find out that i'm not the person i thought i always have been? it's a security measure. we hang on to what we think we're like as tightly as we would a security blanket, and we refuse to let ourselves belief that maybe we're wrong about ourselves... maybe we're not as scared as we thought we were, or as stupid as we lead ourselves to believe, or as talentless as everyone says we are. why won't people take a chance to find out if all those negative things we believe ourselves to be may be false?

don't we wanna be true to ourselves? don't we want to live a life that's wonderfully full and rich and vibrant and happy instead of dispairing, fruitless, in black and white, and dull? i don't...