Blurry-Eyed Blog

dear blog, it's been... god knows how long since my last blog. things haven't been the greatest, though i shouldn't complain (i do anyway). i have roughly 7 more weeks left of my course (official in-class weeks), but the end looks very unattainable.

see, that's my problem right there (and men don't think we solve our problems by "aimlessly ranting". bah!). i look too far into the future and don't focus on the present or even enjoy it, and that's hurting me. grass is greener on the other side i suppose... i'm not really thankful for what i do have... i have time off during weekdays, i don't have to wake up at 6:30am five days a week (two out of five 6:30 mornings is ok), and i haven't had to deal with obnoxious colleagues or mightier-than-thou bosses (although i've had the odd job here and there with culinary perks... what can i say, i'm ruled by my stomach).

thing is, i never expected to still be finishing courses when i'm 24. most ppl my age have already had several jobs, saved some money, bought a car on their own, and maybe supporting the rest of the family monetarily. i feel like the poor slob cousin who leaches off parents and doens't have to worry too much about where my money is coming from. eew, mental picture of self as a leach... not very attractive.